There's one place I keep wanting to go nowadays.... :) School's in full blast now so I really should try to think less of holidaying and more of working hard.

There's a part of me that always thinks about the old times, the past... perhaps its because my mind is sometimes just too active, and I often sort of program my own slide shows in my head. And then I just watch those images in my head flash by. Sometimes I really wish I can just get rid of some of the images, not because they aren't happy ones, but more because they seem unreal. Maybe you know what I'm talking about.... recently have been feeling as though the past 2 years of my life didn't really happen. I guess I still struggle with forgiveness, very much so.... not as forgiving as I thought I could be. Yeah when I really stop and think about it, I know the hurt's still very much there, and there are days when I know I can still cry at the thought of it.

But there's so much to be happy about now. I want to thank God but I find it so hard to put my gratefulness in words. Don't think I've ever received such a wonderful gift ever.... and the timing, the circumstances... everything. Someone who really understands -- even the hurt and insecurity that I feel after what happened. Sometimes when I pray I just seem to have an endless list of things to give thanks for.

Can't wait for the weekend to come again :)


My favorite song for the moment -- Above All

Above all powers, above all kings
Above all nature and all created things
Above all wisdom and all the ways of man
You were here before the world began

Above all kingdoms, above all thrones
Above all wonders the world has ever known
Above all wealth and treasures of the earth
There's no way to measure what you're worth

Crucified
Laid behind a stone
You lived to die
Rejected and alone
Like a rose
Trampled on the ground
You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all