I spent like half an hour reading through my own blogs. Now I know why people read blogs. Haha Elaine calls it office entertainment, Peiying would probably call it "lab entertainment". But yeah... it's like a window into someone else's life. I read it and couldn't help tearing. I guess if u read it u'll know why.
Today I read someone else's blog. This girl... she's really strong. I read her blog and it made me want to be a better person. A happier and stronger person. Anyway I happen to know her in some weird contorted way. She's my friend's sister, and also Nick's bball team's captain's ex gf. So I met her last year when I went to watch Nick play bball... and she was on the "supporter's bench" too. Quite weird right when you think about it... like this year the bench might be either empty or filled with a different set of faces. What struck me was how each day in her life seemed so meaningful, even though perhaps I might not have enjoyed the stuff she did, I was very amazed at how she seemed to go about each day with zest and enthusiasm. And it's about time I did that too.
Actually I think i am. I have met so many people in the past month... talked and shared my thoughts with so many more. I have read so many books and newspapers and magazines and online journals that i actually do feel proud of my stuffed-with-more-general-knowledge brain. I have taken a liking to ultimate frisbee after playing with the MTI ppl... and i will probably make it a serious hobby when I finally settle down back in Singapore. Netball's been great... not just the fact that I feel like I'm not that bad a player after all, but more so because I have made the effort to talk to people whom I haven't had much contact with in the past. I was just too caught up with myself and my needs and how busy i was with trainings and school etc... that i never really made the effort to talk to some of my teammates. It's just so easy to get caught up with yourself. Cos it takes a lot less effort to just care about yourself and not about others, and to only focus on how you are hurting and suffering and stressed. But this time round, it's been so different, and I think over the last month i have made some wonderful lasting friends.
Went to watch Mean girls with a bunch of guys and Clarice last night. And I realized that I have changed too. A person doesn't have to be extroverted or sociable to have friends... cos there are lots of introverted ppl around too who can make really good friends and whom i can talk to really comfortably. I never thought I would actually hang out with them, but after last night... I can honestly say that i'm gonna enjoy hanging out with them much much more! Even at the Rouge party on Friday, I did so many things I was afraid of doing last time. I wore a bright lime shiny halter with a black miniskirt :) HAHA. I drank... on my own accord... I danced a bit, and I talked to lots and lots of people!!!
So yeah... I feel more grownup now :) The world isn't out to get me, my luck isn't all that bad. I feel as though I used to stand on one side of the road, afraid to cross even though there isn't much traffic, and when i look up all i see is dark gloomy skies and grey clouds waiting to pour on me. But now i realize that i just have to cross the road and look back up again, and I might just see a rainbow peeping out.
Today I read someone else's blog. This girl... she's really strong. I read her blog and it made me want to be a better person. A happier and stronger person. Anyway I happen to know her in some weird contorted way. She's my friend's sister, and also Nick's bball team's captain's ex gf. So I met her last year when I went to watch Nick play bball... and she was on the "supporter's bench" too. Quite weird right when you think about it... like this year the bench might be either empty or filled with a different set of faces. What struck me was how each day in her life seemed so meaningful, even though perhaps I might not have enjoyed the stuff she did, I was very amazed at how she seemed to go about each day with zest and enthusiasm. And it's about time I did that too.
Actually I think i am. I have met so many people in the past month... talked and shared my thoughts with so many more. I have read so many books and newspapers and magazines and online journals that i actually do feel proud of my stuffed-with-more-general-knowledge brain. I have taken a liking to ultimate frisbee after playing with the MTI ppl... and i will probably make it a serious hobby when I finally settle down back in Singapore. Netball's been great... not just the fact that I feel like I'm not that bad a player after all, but more so because I have made the effort to talk to people whom I haven't had much contact with in the past. I was just too caught up with myself and my needs and how busy i was with trainings and school etc... that i never really made the effort to talk to some of my teammates. It's just so easy to get caught up with yourself. Cos it takes a lot less effort to just care about yourself and not about others, and to only focus on how you are hurting and suffering and stressed. But this time round, it's been so different, and I think over the last month i have made some wonderful lasting friends.
Went to watch Mean girls with a bunch of guys and Clarice last night. And I realized that I have changed too. A person doesn't have to be extroverted or sociable to have friends... cos there are lots of introverted ppl around too who can make really good friends and whom i can talk to really comfortably. I never thought I would actually hang out with them, but after last night... I can honestly say that i'm gonna enjoy hanging out with them much much more! Even at the Rouge party on Friday, I did so many things I was afraid of doing last time. I wore a bright lime shiny halter with a black miniskirt :) HAHA. I drank... on my own accord... I danced a bit, and I talked to lots and lots of people!!!
So yeah... I feel more grownup now :) The world isn't out to get me, my luck isn't all that bad. I feel as though I used to stand on one side of the road, afraid to cross even though there isn't much traffic, and when i look up all i see is dark gloomy skies and grey clouds waiting to pour on me. But now i realize that i just have to cross the road and look back up again, and I might just see a rainbow peeping out.
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