Sorry every time I crumble u will end up seeing the part of me u wish to be rid of. The insecure part of me that I'm trying to overcome as well. I know that's the part you can't stand. After a while I trusted you enough to let you in deeper, and allowed you to see the darker and uglier side of me. It's clear that you don't want anything to do with that part of me, and although I'm trying to grow and learn and overcome it as well, you don't want to accompany me through that process. It's certainly easier to run away then to face the hardships of growing together, just like each time a phone conversation or sms gets touchy on the subject, it's easier to just ignore it than to think of an answer.

I'm not trying to convince you of anything anymore. If anything happens, it will have to come from within you, and it's no longer something I have any control over. If you still care about me as a friend or anything more than a friend, you'll be willing to make the effort. I can only say that I see both the bright and dark sides of you and am happy to weather life's journey with you. I still stand by what i said when u tried to convince me you're not as good as I may think you are. Perhaps in the future you will come across a perfect girl who will see perfection in you too and there will be no obstacles to cross together.

If you ever need a listening ear or someone to lean on, you know i'll be here. If I ever mean anything to you anymore, in days, weeks, months or years, you know when, where and how to find me. I have learnt a great deal about myself after what has happened, and I promise you won't see that darker side of me anymore. Although I know I will crumble again in a few days weeks or months, I'll do it out of your sight. I'll survive.

As I write this, I am well aware that anything i say now will just reinforce your opinion that i'm not the right girl So I'll stop here.