Love is so easy to appreciate, describe and enjoy with all is blissful and happy.... but when things start to change, love becomes something ppl label as "hard to understand, complex, uncontrollable..." Is it just some way to avoid having to deal with the problems? The way we say... Maths is too complex for me, I can't be bothered to think about it....

How can u love someone so much that you want to marry him and have kids and plan to buy a house etc etc... and tell all your friends about your plans... and then after a while, change your mind and think that maybe some other guy has more potential just cos he showers love and attention on you? Why are humans born with the ability to behave so selfishly? Its like a curse that's placed on us from the day we are born... Why does this world allow such hurtful behavior? I am so afraid of becoming like one of them... I am really trying to be strong about this. I know that eventually some girls find their lifetime partner this way... but I dunno, maybe there's no "Mr Right"? Maybe there's more than one "Mr Right" for each girl... just depends on which one is there at that moment.

I don't know why I'm so mad now. Mad as in angry... disappointed... upset. This shouldn't concern me at all.. but it just bothers me that girls can be such heartless devious creatures sometimes. I'm a girl too and I know this sounds insane that I'm berating my own sex, but yeah, I'm ashamed I guess. It always seems like its the girl who spoils the LDR.

I hope that when I graduate and go back to work for PSC and they ask me, so what's the most important thing you learnt during this 4 years overseas, I can look at them and tell them, " I learnt how to make a Long Distance Relationship last."