There are just some days I want to sleep and not get up ever. Lying in bed last night and thinking about things I should never be thinking about... EVER. But last night there were just so many random thoughts flirting with my brain.... And then...it was suddenly Wednesday morning. So here I am, telling myself, its another NEW day... a new day has holds lots of opportunities... lots of potential.... a day that I should seize with the utmost enthusiasm.

Someone saw through me last night, and told me that perhaps the wall I built to shield myself wasn't as opaque and strong as I make it out to be. I don't consciously construct any kind of wall around me.... maybe its a silent forcefield kind of thing that i use to repel certain obnoxious ppl... but no, I don't think there's any need for a wall. After all, why bother with a wall when u can just put on a mask? I think its scary that you never really know what someone is really like.

I feel like I could run forever. When I hit 40 min on the treadmill, i know i can go on forever. Well, I GUESS technically that's not humanly possible... but it does feel like it. Just need to get into the rhythm. Right song right speed and... that's it. It feels good to escape into another world.