This weekend was perhaps the best weekend I've had this semester.

Korkor and ToiNgee and Seraphina came down from Cornell for a visit and gosh... it felt so good to just kick back and relax for 2 days. Good food.. good company... good weather...what more could I ask? We spent Friday night playing PS2... playing RISK... Saturday we went to hunt for cheesesteak at Pat's and Gyno's, shopped at Vietnamese Town, drove around Philly Center City, came back for more PS2 and Monopoly. Then it was Penang for dinner... chicken rice, belachan kang kong, pai gu wang, hokkien mee. Back home for mahjong, carrom, tv, more PS2. Sunday morning was dim sum... and egg tarts and more PS2. I actually felt a tremendous sense of emptiness when they left in the afternoon. I have this urge to just run away and go up to Cornell now.... maybe i'll go up next week. A bit too much work this week... but YAH i really just wanna go up there and find kor.

This weekend really reminded me of how important family is. I felt so comforted having my brother around, and its like I knew I could be at ease and didn't have to pretend to be who i'm not. Both his friends were so nice too. *sigh* Good company doesn't come by easily. There are some people whom I get really stressed talking to, you know, like I have to think of conversation topics and all... but somehow we just got along from the start.

I've been thinking about some stuff lately... Not really sure of my goals anymore, not really sure of who I am and what I hope to achieve. Somehow feel like I'm doing stuff for the wrong reasons. And then there's stuff that I really want to do but can't, or maybe they're too tough and I give myself an excuse by saying "I can't." Sometimes feel very disgusted with myself...