20th of March.... I'm really counting down the days.
I've been thinking if I'm really enjoying this semester. In a way I really am... I've been able to do so many more things, badminton's been really fun and i've made so many more friends. Imbert taught me how to hit the shuttlecock hard without having to use much arm power... haha its true it doesn't really take that much strength. Work is eye opening and I feel really comfortable working with Lois (the psych grad student), we talk about everything and anything. Just yesterday I spent 45 minutes talking to her about how small socially responsible businesses like Ben& Jerry's were swallowed by big corporations who did not push for the same values and causes. Lois is from a totally different background from me and we have completely different interests... and I think that's why we can talk about so many different things. I tell her of my travel experiences (she hasn't travelled to many places at all) and she tells me of her cultural and religious interests. She's a Jew and she's a film + ethnic music buff.
My econ Public Finance class is really fun and I'm spending quite a bit of time analyzing Singapore's population policies.... talked to Prof Merlo a few times and he's always able to give me valuable input on my paper. Its like each time I talk to him... he tells me about this new perspective that I can look at my data from... and I'll be like "OH YAH... HMM..."
Jap history class is so insightful and I love the readings. There's a book called Hojoki by Chomei and his poems are really moving. The recitations are just crazy... just this Friday, a discussion about the Meiji Constitution promulgated by Ito degraded into a debate over womens' rights. ??? But its so fun... wild but fun... and there are all these clashing personalities in my recitation that make the discussions so heated all the time. Haha.... I totally enraged a fellow female classmate when I spoke up about how I felt that women did possess many rights that men did not.
My grades are fine... I'm getting the hang of how to write papers...I'm spending less time on the theory-based classes cos I just find that pointless. Like equations and calculations etc... what's the point in all that? I feel like I learn so much more researching about the topics for my papers, having discussions with people about topics that I am interested in.... its just so much more enriching to me.
I'm getting fit and try to hit the gym every other day... I can't wait for the weather to become warm enough for outdoor runs. I think exercise really helps me stay healthy (yah yah.. some pple will probably say *duh*) but its true... when I work out constantly... I don't feel lethargic or sleepy in class... I sleep better at night and I have less nightmares.
I have time to play PS2, watch TV occasionally, surf the net for everything under the sun....I've been reading Straits Times everyday, Today Online... CNN... its's getting kind of addictive actually. U read someone's comments about something, then they include a link to someone else's commentary.. so you just click and read and click and read....
But yet... something's missing. In the midst of all the wonderful things i'm doing and all the new things i'm learning, there seems to be something not right. I can't put my finger on it.... yet something bothers me all the time and I can't quite tell what it is.
I'm sure if anyone reads this... you'd probably say... "I know what's missing." But I dunno... I think I'm just weird. Like maybe there's nothing really missing.... but I just think there is... or I just keep yearning for something more in life.
I feel like making this blog private... I dunno. It feels stupid writing about this kind of stuff sometimes.
I've been thinking if I'm really enjoying this semester. In a way I really am... I've been able to do so many more things, badminton's been really fun and i've made so many more friends. Imbert taught me how to hit the shuttlecock hard without having to use much arm power... haha its true it doesn't really take that much strength. Work is eye opening and I feel really comfortable working with Lois (the psych grad student), we talk about everything and anything. Just yesterday I spent 45 minutes talking to her about how small socially responsible businesses like Ben& Jerry's were swallowed by big corporations who did not push for the same values and causes. Lois is from a totally different background from me and we have completely different interests... and I think that's why we can talk about so many different things. I tell her of my travel experiences (she hasn't travelled to many places at all) and she tells me of her cultural and religious interests. She's a Jew and she's a film + ethnic music buff.
My econ Public Finance class is really fun and I'm spending quite a bit of time analyzing Singapore's population policies.... talked to Prof Merlo a few times and he's always able to give me valuable input on my paper. Its like each time I talk to him... he tells me about this new perspective that I can look at my data from... and I'll be like "OH YAH... HMM..."
Jap history class is so insightful and I love the readings. There's a book called Hojoki by Chomei and his poems are really moving. The recitations are just crazy... just this Friday, a discussion about the Meiji Constitution promulgated by Ito degraded into a debate over womens' rights. ??? But its so fun... wild but fun... and there are all these clashing personalities in my recitation that make the discussions so heated all the time. Haha.... I totally enraged a fellow female classmate when I spoke up about how I felt that women did possess many rights that men did not.
My grades are fine... I'm getting the hang of how to write papers...I'm spending less time on the theory-based classes cos I just find that pointless. Like equations and calculations etc... what's the point in all that? I feel like I learn so much more researching about the topics for my papers, having discussions with people about topics that I am interested in.... its just so much more enriching to me.
I'm getting fit and try to hit the gym every other day... I can't wait for the weather to become warm enough for outdoor runs. I think exercise really helps me stay healthy (yah yah.. some pple will probably say *duh*) but its true... when I work out constantly... I don't feel lethargic or sleepy in class... I sleep better at night and I have less nightmares.
I have time to play PS2, watch TV occasionally, surf the net for everything under the sun....I've been reading Straits Times everyday, Today Online... CNN... its's getting kind of addictive actually. U read someone's comments about something, then they include a link to someone else's commentary.. so you just click and read and click and read....
But yet... something's missing. In the midst of all the wonderful things i'm doing and all the new things i'm learning, there seems to be something not right. I can't put my finger on it.... yet something bothers me all the time and I can't quite tell what it is.
I'm sure if anyone reads this... you'd probably say... "I know what's missing." But I dunno... I think I'm just weird. Like maybe there's nothing really missing.... but I just think there is... or I just keep yearning for something more in life.
I feel like making this blog private... I dunno. It feels stupid writing about this kind of stuff sometimes.
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