The gym was so eerie... for once I didn't have to worry about not having a treadmill to run on. Seems like everyone's out on Valentine's Day. I am actually really sad... behind that tough exterior that everyone sees day in day out, the Jasmin that seems to be able to manage anything and everything is actually hurting. Nothing... nothing at all today. Waited for the UPS and FEDEX delivery guy to miraculously appear although they dun deliver normal packages on weekends. Oh well... like I said before... I'm always waiting and waiting. But I know that I'm sad just cos tonight is tonight... and tomorrow everything's gonna go back to normal and i'll be back to my old self again. I'm happy I managed to talk to some friends from back home... people that I don't talk to often or seldom see online. Its always nice to find out a bit more about how people are doing, even if they say that they've been "ok lor... same same". But if u think about it, something that's "same same" to us may in fact be something that's super interesting to someone else. I love to share little bits of my life and my thoughts with people, and in the same way I really appreciate it when people share a bit of themselves with me. Not in a gossipy way of course, but its such an eyeopener to hear other viewpoints or perspectives. Sometimes I'm surprised that so many people actually think the same way I do, and sometimes I'm surprised that most people think differently from me. Ok, what's the main point of my blog? I don't know... haha. I was thinking of so many things on the treadmill just now... apart from how to hit 7 miles in an hour.... but everything seemed to have disappeared from my mind!!! Oh... was watching CNN while running... and they had this snippet on American soldiers in Iraq trying to send V-day cards and presents to their loved ones back home. Here I am brooding over the fact that my boyfriend is so far away... but I have no idea what FAR AWAY actually means. These soldiers have to call 1800 calling card numbers like 10 over times before they get through to their girlfriends or wives, and they have to queue up to use email for 10 minutes. SO STOP BEING SAD U DOPE. heh...

Why do people blog? I ask myself the same question... and here's my answer to myself. I blog so that people I don't really keep in touch with can still know what's happening to my life. I blog so that people I knew who don't want to talk to me cos they are afraid that I forgot about them can still find out about me. And most importantly, blogging is remarkably therapeutic. Sometimes when I want to talk about something, I can't think of anyone who would want to listen to my ramblings. I don't like to hold a conversation with someone feeling that he or she isn't the least bit interested in what I have to say, but yet I feel the need to express myself. I hate the feeling of harbouring thoughts in my head and being unable to get them out. And then there's this small part of me that thinks, "well maybe if SOMEONE was actually interested, he or she will read it and then respond?" So I need to put my thoughts down or say them out loud. And there are some things that I want to remember but am afraid that i'll forget. So if this serves doesn't crash, my words will be here to stay. Yah... I think that's why I blog.